I weighed myself Friday, felt discouraged, and put away my scale until at least next week or maybe later if I can hold off longer. I felt discouraged because I’ve only lost about 5 lbs in over a month and even though I recognize the small progress I can’t help but dwell on what I’m doing wrong. Today I realized part of what is holding me back from actually accomplishing my goals: honesty.
This word describes what is missing from my relationship with myself and I think this has always been a contributor to my weight gain. I think sometimes the lies we tell ourselves are the ones that can hold us back the most from achieving our goals. I tell myself I’m doing everything right, eating right, staying active, avoiding sugar, doing all the right things that should lead to weight loss; however this is not the truth.
Here is the truth, both for myself and any readers out there. I am trying to avoid sugar but still sneaking chocolate, eating better but could still cut down on snacking, and staying active involves working out sporadically when I feel like it, even then it’s like 10 minutes of basics and stretching. Sometimes it’s so easy to tell small lies, “a few pieces of chocolate won’t hurt”, “I’ll work out tomorrow”, “I went shopping, walking around the store, that’s like a workout”, “one more snack before bed won’t be bad”…etc., etc. The list goes on and on.
Now I know what I’ve been doing wrong and actually have it in writing, which makes it more difficult to hide. I guess that since the truth is out the next question is where to go from here.
Step 1: Get the Christmas candy out of sight or probably better yet out of the house-not much here but it needs to go
Step 2: Continue to track eating during the day. I’ve been using an app called Fooducate, (which I highly recommend) but I need to apply my new found honesty here as well tracking on both the good days and the bad days, and entering the bad foods as well as the good.
Step 3: Get active! I’ve read so many articles about how to start a routine, reasons to work out in the morning, how to form a habit but now I need to apply this vast range of knowledge. Just put an alarm into my phone for a set workout time in the morning, plus printing out a calendar for my star chart. I was most consistent working out was when I kept a calendar on my door and marked each day I worked out with a gold star, simple and a bit cheesy but it worked for me.
Now that the truth is out I will move forward starting to make changes and promise full disclosure to myself in the future.