Loss of Motivation

I have lost my motivation.

Most of my day has been spent staring out the window or my computer screen.  I did make it to the gym this morning after 3 days off but it was a challenge to get moving.  I keep hoping I will get some burst of energy that will inspire me to do all the things I need to get done before this weekend but it’s not happening.  I was hoping writing a post would at least make me focus on something for a bit but I keep stopping to stare out the window.

*leaves to get snack*

Maybe hunger was part of the problem, unfortunately I’m still struggling with my eating but I planned out my dinners for the rest of the week so hopefully that will help get me back on track.  Last week I just wasn’t hungry but this week my appetite seems to be back along with a strange craving for red meat.

I could probably be a vegetarian with minimal effort, although I love chicken and fish plus every so often I really want a hamburger.  I know when I’m craving red meat it’s usually because I’m not getting enough iron, which might also explain the lack of motivation.  This is why I like writing because sometimes writing things out helps me find solutions.  I need to take a closer look at my diet, so I’ve started tracking my food again plus taking a multi-vitamin and vitamin D (I have a serious vitamin D deficiency but I also hate taking pills so I slack sometimes).

I’m excited to go home this weekend for to watch the Oscars, also my mom and I are going to a musical called “Memphis”.  It’s one I don’t know much about but sometimes those are the best ones.  I’ve got some games I’m putting together for our Oscar viewing party so I wanted to get that finished up today; however I’m still fighting the urge to go lay on the couch and read my book (Game of Thrones, I’m obsessed).

I’m just feeling overwhelmed thinking about all the decisions I need to make, waiting to hear back from jobs, tracking my finances to see how long I can stay unemployed, cleaning stuff out of my apartment, trying to pack and clean some so I don’t have to try to do everything when I finally figure out a plan, working out and eating right, planning the Oscars party, going out of town, applying for jobs, etc.  It’s a combination of the big things and small things, making me feel so scattered and unfocused that I just want to stop.

I think I’m going to finish up a few more things, write up a to-do list for tomorrow, and give into that urge, also tracking down some lunch sounds like a good plan.  The to-do list for tomorrow will be packed since I didn’t get much done today but I’m confident by tomorrow I will have found my motivation.



  1. keen peach · February 17, 2015

    It will come back! Don’t give up, you have been doing so good! 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    • daisy9979 · February 18, 2015

      Thanks so much. I think I’m back on track just a momentary loss of focus 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

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