“It’s Complicated”

If my relationship with food was a Facebook status it would definitely be “it’s complicated” but I’m constantly striving to get past this stage into a healthy effortless relationship.  The one where I don’t think about it all the time, where I don’t waiver on my commitment, where food is not viewed as the enemy but a partner.

If you’ve always eaten healthy or never struggled with your weight it can difficult to understand how something as simple as food can be so complicated.  If you’ve found a place where food is fuel or where you know how to just eat when you’re hungry and not eat when you’re not hungry it’s challenging to understand how food can be an enemy.

In the past I was ashamed of my eating habits.
I hated eating with other people.
I hated people seeing what was in my shopping cart.
I hated myself for choosing to eat so much.

I say choosing because it was a conscious choice.  I would eat thousands of calories in a day but somehow justify it in my mind by eating practically nothing the next day then binge again the next day.  I can’t begin to imagine the chaos my body was in with binge-eating then not eating plus when I was eating it was processed foods, sugar, fat, with limited protein and nutrients.

I strive to reach a place of peace with my eating habits.

Every good food choice becomes a victory.  I have to be constantly vigilant because even though I’ve made progress I still have a ways to go before it’s easy.  I continue to work toward the mindset where the choices just happen naturally.  As I learn to make smarter food choices I step closer toward finding that healthy effortless relationship with food.

I don’t overeat as often (this last weekend was an exception 😉 )  because it’s not good for me and I hate feeling overly full. I use some of the small tips I pick up here and there to help me as I change my eating.  As a single person I’m getting better about making portions just for me but sometimes you can’t avoid leftovers.  One of my favorite tips is to put away left overs before you sit down to eat so you don’t have the temptation of going back for seconds…or thirds.

Lately one of my biggest challenges is learning the difference between hungry and bored.  I’m not working and I’m home most of the day so it’s super tempting some days (like today) to want to eat all day.  To combat this I try to keep busy as much as possible, drink lots of water, and the meal plans should help.

In combination with the meal plans I’m trying to eat at specific times of the day, especially for dinner because I tend to get involved in a project or binge watching episodes of Lost (What is with this island?) and lose track of time so I end up starting dinner at 7pm. The late dinner throws off the rest of my evening primarily my intentions of getting to bed at a reasonable time.

I’m going grocery shopping tomorrow morning armed with a budget and a strict list.  A couple weeks ago I impulsively bought some potato chips thinking I would be fine but ended up eating the entire bag in just a few days because it was convenient to grab a handful of chips every so often like when I was bored…I’m not gonna make that mistake again.

As I head out to the store I’m reminding myself of one of my favorite rules for eating healthy which is if you have good food in the house you will eat good food 🙂

The World Needs More Love Letters

I wrote last month about how much I love sending and receiving mail so I adore this post! The website, The World Needs More Love Letters, is an amazing idea and I’m looking forward to writing some letters.

Single Strides

One night I was perusing the web during my normal insomniac routine and discovered this website: The World Needs More Love Letters.

The title already caught my eye, but then the founder’s story literally took my breath away. It was as if I was reading a bio of mine from a former life, should I have moved to NYC. That could have been me.

I almost wish it were I because this idea is SO up my alley that I immediately spent the next few days searching for the perfect stationary to get involved. I even sent a somewhat fan-obsessed email at 1am that may or may not have been a little psycho. But hey, love is psycho, right? And I so love this idea.

Their motto is literally to make love famous. Y’all know I love love!

So what do they do? They bundle love letters for

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Meal Plan Monday

As I mentioned yesterday one of my to-do’s to help me progress with my healthy lifestyle change is to create meal plans for the week and I wanted to post it for accountability.  My fridge is almost empty and my cupboards are nearly bare so it’s time to grocery shop.  I know meal plans are good for a variety of reasons but for my purposes it will help me get into a place where I’m eating 3 meals a day and eating healthier food.

Right now the meal plan is super basic because if I over-complicate things I won’t stick with it and I just say that because I know myself.  I am venturing out and trying a few new recipes including tofu for the first time.  This has been on my “things to try” list for a long time but this is the week.

I’m also looking forward to trying the sweet potato and bacon pizza.  I saw this in a magazine over the weekend and knew instantly I wanted to try it.  A recipe combining three of my favorite things, sweet potato, bacon, and pizza, yes please! 🙂

As I wrote this out I learned to do dinners first because then I could incorporate leftovers into my lunches.  Tonight I’m making a pork tenderloin so I know I’ll have plenty to make tacos tomorrow night.  My grocery list will be simple and I’m going to try doing some comparison shopping and maybe check out some coupons to save money.  I’ve hated the idea of going to different grocery stores but I’m willing to give it a try especially since I have time and could stand to save some money (plus I live in a town where driving just about anywhere takes about 5 minutes).

I’ll keep some stuff (fruits, crackers, cheese, veggies, hummus, etc) on hand for snacks and am going to make some Peanut Butter Energy Bites to grab in the morning before hitting the gym.  I think seeing some changes in my body is making me feel more motivated to keep everything on track and this might be what I need to finally get my healthy eating habits and working out in sync (you can read more about that struggle here).  Nothing fancy but I think it’s a good start.

T: Toast with almond butter & berries
W: Eggs with turkey sausage
T: Oatmeal with berries
F: Sweet potato hash
S: Veggie fritatta
T: Soup
W: Pasta with tuna and broccoli
T: Dinner leftovers
F: Salad and Pita
S: Leftover pizza and salad
T: Pork tacos with rice
W: Tofu stir fry
T: Baked chicken w/sweet potatoes & veggies
F: Bacon & sweet potato pizza
S: Eggplant Parmesan