I went to my parents’ house last weekend but since I’m not working and my mom had the week off I decided to drive up on Wednesday to enjoy some extra family time. Part of me felt guilty for leaving town for so long because I’m still job hunting but once I was honest with myself about how much I was actually going to accomplish in the extra day and a half the guilt was gone.
The guilt was further eliminated when I spent Thursday with my grandpa and mom at the casino….I know, family gambling time 🙄 but it was so much fun. We won, we lost, we ate dinner, we stayed later than planned but we had a blast.
I took notes about my weekend and on Thursday I wrote down:
-Treasuring the moment
-The simple times
-too much money 😦
-worth it for the joy
I didn’t have my phone out the whole time (I did check my e-mail a few times). I wasn’t worrying about my future. I was too busy watching my grandpa tapping the side of the machine asking for a big win, laughing with my mom about the crazy bonuses on the machines, and enjoying dinner by the river.
I was enjoying myself and know these are moments I’ll always treasure.
Part of my lifestyle change is abandoning my hermit-like solitary lifestyle and working on reestablishing connections plus strengthening current connections. Perhaps I’m getting old and sentimental but when I look back at my life I don’t feel regret for things I didn’t buy but I do regret some of the moments I never experienced or the friends I neglected. I find myself not longing for more stuff but instead looking to make memories, to find moments of pure happiness, and to enjoy the moments with the people I love.