Here’s a confession for Sunday. I’m still in my pajamas and haven’t left my apartment all day. It’s been a truly lazy Sunday and I’ve enjoyed every minute of it, actually it’s been a lazy 3 day weekend for me. Thankfully, as seen in the picture, cats are good with lazy weekends 🐱
I realized this afternoon the partial reason why I’ve been in such a funk the last few days. Last week I was texting friends, sending pictures, and no one was replying or they would reply after a few hours. Why? Because it was a Tuesday and they were at work but nonetheless I was disappointed when I wouldn’t hear back from everyone right away.
I fully recognize it’s a ridiculous thing to be annoyed or disappointed about because it’s not like they were ignoring me, they were working at their jobs like most people are in the middle of the day on a weekday. To any friends or family reading this post I don’t think you intentionally ignore me (most of the time 😉 ). I think it just made me feel left out and served as another reminder that I didn’t have a job. I’ve mentioned before the end of the month is my most emotionally challenging time.
I think these lazy days, actually it’s more like a lazy week and a half, were beneficial. I edited photos, watched TV, played video games (I’m terrible at video games but it was fun), and ate ice cream. I had the best of intentions last week to make plans and a schedule for myself but I was a bit of slacker. I have higher hopes for this week and I’m making plans for both work and play plus it’s the start of a whole new month. I hope for an interview or something leading me closer to a job but I’m making plans to continue to enjoy my life.
Tomorrow I’m planning gym and a walk in a new place. There’s another arboretum at the far end and across the street from the one I usually walk out so I’m going to check it out, heard it’s not as impressive but I love exploring new places. Last night I found a new path that basically serves as an extension for my current walking path, a nice paved loop that adds about another mile. I’ve done alright walking but need to amp up the strength training.
I didn’t make it to the gym at all last week so I’ve made plans to go as often as possible this week to get myself back into the groove. I’m going to set a goal to get in there at least 4 days starting tomorrow. I’ve been doing some light strength training at home but I really need to get into the gym plus I’m paying for it so I need to use it.
I’m hoping this is the month I finally make some progress in the job department and I’ve broadened my search range to include areas I was ignoring in the beginning. I’m even considering a part time job to get me by for now. I have plans to spend tomorrow afternoon job searching and looking into some new leads plus looking into a local place for a possible volunteer opportunity.
I’m also trying to plan a time sometime this week between all the thunderstorms to head an hour out of town for a hike to some waterfalls. I’m putting together a workout schedule with walks planned for different areas to mix it up and help keep me on track this week.
Admittedly last week I hit a very negative “what am I doing with my life?” roadblock. Most of the time I can push through but last week my physical and emotional reaction was to shut down. Today is the last day I stand behind that roadblock. It’s a new week and a new month so I’m making plans to push forward 😀