I agreed to take some pictures of veterans tonight for the magazine but I’m kind of scared because, as strange as it sounds, I don’t have much experience taking pictures of people. Most of my pictures are squirrels or flowers or trees, objects that can’t talk, so the thought of this assignment makes me a bit anxious.
I think it’s just the fear of the unknown. I’ve never done anything like this so I don’t know what to expect when I get there tonight. I’d almost managed to talk myself out of doing it but the only reason I had for not doing it was fear. When she asked me about it I almost said no.
Luckily I’m at a place in my life where I’m trying to conquer my fears.
I’m learning you never know where taking a chance will lead.
I’m learning I’m capable of much more than I think I’m capable of doing.
The place is literally a 6 minute drive (every place in my town is under 10 minutes unless there’s traffic then maybe 15 at the most) so of course I started getting ready 15 minutes ago and the event starts in 2 hours…..so I might be ready a little early but better early than late.
I thought about walking but I didn’t want to arrive all sweaty and didn’t want to walk home in the dark tonight so I decided I would write for a little bit in an attempt to calm myself. Writing is a good channel for some of my nervous energy plus it usually helps me put things in perspective, reminds me that what I’m doing is 100% within my realm of capabilities and it’s good to face my fears.
Usually when I’m scared of a situation I try to imagine a worse case scenario so for this situation my worst case scenario is (I hope I’m not jinxing myself) something happening to my camera but even if something happens I have my phone as a potential backup. That actually makes me feel a little better, acknowledging my own personal worst case scenario and the solution.
I’m feeling more relaxed but still nervous so I’ll continue to get ready, think I’m going to have a late dinner tonight, eat a snack for now, then eat when I get home. I’ll let you guys know tonight or tomorrow how everything goes! I’m actually starting to feel less nervous and more excited! 🙂