I am moving past the “waiting for a callback” topic that has dominated my blog for the last 2 weeks. It’s not going to be easy to stop myself from thinking about it but I need to just continue living my life. I have to be honest with myself about what I’ve been doing lately. It’s going to sound harsh but I need to put an end to the little pity party I’ve been having for myself.
After this post today I’m not going to post anything else about it until I have new information.
I really want to e-mail to avoid the phone call but I know a phone call is the better way to go. I’m going to call tomorrow afternoon if I haven’t heard anything because it will have been exactly 2 weeks. My next dilemma is figuring out who to call. The person on the recruiting team who set up the interview? One of the panel members? Some random HR person?
I’m going to go with one of the panel members since I have the phone number for 2 of them and just check on the status of the hiring process. I’m going to write out a little script with some notes to help me out. In my research I realized I should have asked who I could contact for follow-up, if it’s okay to contact for follow-up, and the date to follow-up.
Lesson learned. Move forward.
I realized last night after spending all day yesterday (obsessively) checking my e-mail and my phone I’m allowing the waiting to overtake my life. It’s affecting my mood very negatively. As I woke up sniffling and coughing I realized it might also be affecting my health.
This potential job is very important to me but I can’t allow it to consume me. I’m becoming even more anxious than usual and depressed. I allowed myself to get very excited at the prospect of moving and starting a new job that when everything didn’t happen right away it affected me more than I wanted to admit.
Last night I was resolved to spending the evening not thinking about it and started popping some popcorn so I could settle in to watch “True Detective” but I received within a minute of each other text messages from 2 amazing, wonderful, well-intentioned friends asking if I’d heard anything yet.
My previous calm quickly turned back to anxiety but I responded then put the phone in my bedroom, out of sight, out of earshot, and it was good.
I resolved to go to bed by 9PM because I was telling someone the other day to get into a routine and realized I needed to follow my own advice. I didn’t even watch TV in bed (slowly breaking the habit), instead found a nice calm station on Pandora, Ocean Waves for Deep Sleep, set the sleep timer and went to sleep. I recommend the station if you like nature sounds with some light music, very relaxing.
As I lay in bed this morning not wanting to get out of bed it furthered my resolve to want to get out this “waiting to hear back from a job” funk I’ve put myself in right now. I realized allowing myself to sink into depression isn’t doing me any good. I was talking myself out of even leaving the apartment today, which is a red flag for me. When I start finding excuses for being a hermit then it’s time to fight.
Fight against the dark cloud hanging over my head and get outside.
I’m going to the gym, check on my friend’s cats, swing by the gallery, drop off the donations overtaking my car right now, and apply for some more jobs. I’m also going to make some sugar scrubs so there will be a post about that later today.
If you’ve made it this far. Thanks for listening to me whine about this issue one last time……Now it’s time to shake away my dark cloud and move onward to (hopefully) happier topics 🙂