Yesterday was a weird day. There were lots of highs and lows. I’m blaming the full moon.
I started 3 different posts yesterday including a rant but only completed one. The day started out pretty good. I slept well. I felt optimistic about the day. I showered and tried out my new scrubs. I was singing. I was happy but then something changed and it was like all these emotions I was trying to ignore hit me all at once.
It was something simple.
I received an e-mail saying my application for a job had been cancelled…. 😕 Cancelled? That was a first and for some reason this single paragraph e-mail sent me into a crying fit. I actually think it was a much needed cry. I’d been holding back since before the interview. I just wish it hadn’t hit me right after I finished putting on makeup.
Ran errands. Solved cookbook mystery. It was a bit strange because it’s from an aunt I haven’t seen since I was a kid and we’ve reconnected through Facebook but it’s kind of weird and has a tendency to stir up things from the past. Yes, I know I’ll need to deal with it eventually but at this moment in my life some doors are closed for a reason.
Anyways, that night I was meeting with someone to sell something in a town about 8 miles away. She said she was meeting with someone else at 7:45 so I said I would meet her at the same time, same place. My last message around 2pm said “That’s great. I’ll just meet you there around the same time tonight”
At 8:00 I sent her a message. She responded she meant tomorrow but gave me her address. The place where my phone was telling me to go was a car dealership (I was on the wrong side of the street) then it died. 11% battery=Dead phone. I turned on a side street, killed my car trying to go driving up this steep hill (I drive a manual), became lost, which lead to frustration.
I gave up but was trying to rush home so I could respond to let her know I wasn’t coming plus I had texted a friend letting her know I was going to a stranger’s house and wanted to let her know I wasn’t kidnapped.
It was frustrating and I became very flustered so I defaulted to past behavior. I decided I was going to drink but I ended up drinking only 2 glasses of wine over 2 hours because I was so tired the wine was just making me more tired. I’m definitely not the party girl I used to be, 2 glasses of wine, 11PM, and I’m done XD It’s for the best actually because I didn’t really want to spend all day today sleeping.
Now I think I’m going to do some more writing, some job hunting, maybe a bit of cleaning….I still feel like I’m in a bit of a fog. The best way to describe it is antsy but lazy. I can’t seem to decide if I want to do something or nothing but I’m sure I’ll figure it out 😀