Ugggghhhhh……I’m skipping Working Wardrobe Wednesday this week because I ran into a bit of a snag this week. I realized 2 things this morning as I began to pile hangers and discarded clothes onto my bed.
- I realized planning my wardrobe for the week really is a good idea.
- I realized I was facing the same dilemma as Austin Powers faced in one of his movies,
“I lost my mojo”
Perhaps Dr. Evil stole it……(Now I just want to watch Austin Powers movies) Anyways, I’ve been feeling super cute and confident in all my work clothes over the last few weeks but this week I felt like I’d lost my mojo, or my groove, or whatever you choose to call it.
Gone was the confidence replaced with feeling like a short, boring, blob. I tried on at least 4 different outfits this morning and hated all of them even outfits I’d loved in the past were discarded to the rejection pile. I proclaimed each outfit to be more dreary than the next
I’ve been racking my brain all morning trying to figure out what’s going on with me. I’ve finally come to the conclusion that I might simply be having an off week. There’s no rule that says because I have confidence in myself I’m not going to ever feel any shred of doubt or have days where I feel fat or unattractive. I was going to say ugly but I find that word to be so harsh and I don’t really feel ugly just not well put together, a little “off my game” lol.
Today I’ve resigned myself to gray slacks, black thermal, and the same dark purple cardigan I wore yesterday.
Warm, comfortable, and a bit dreary…….
That was yesterday.
This morning I felt the weight gain before I even pulled out the scale. I don’t know why but I feel like I have a better understanding of my body now to the point where I could tell I had gained about 3 pounds. Poor eating habits over the weekend trickled over into the first part of the week, not completely but I definitely had a few things I knew I should be avoiding. Also, I haven’t been working out consistently.
The sad part was what happened this morning. I stepped on the scale, saw that I had gained 3 pounds, and the first words out of my mouth were “I guess I need to quit eating” Not, “I should probably get off my ass at night or in the morning and work out” or “Maybe I shouldn’t have eaten 3 slices of pizza for dinner last night” or “I need to start walking more”
Nope, it was that I should stop eating. That makes sense 🙄
Instead of thinking about the healthy changes I could make in my life I decided in that instant the best choice was to cut off all forms of nourishment. I know it was an exaggeration but right after I said it I realized I still have a ways to go in changing my mindset.
Plan of action is to get the eating fully back on track, reading labels, watching sugars, not allowing myself to fall into the quick, easy, processed food trap (it’s so easy when you’re busy and working), and start trying some new foods again. I’m in a new city with a greater variety of grocery shopping locations, plus being in a different region gives me food options I wouldn’t find in other places. For example, close to the ocean means lots of seafood options so I need to start checking out new recipes.
Also, get into some kind of workout routine!!!!!
It really is challenging because after work I don’t feel like doing anything but I know I would feel better if I worked out so I think I might give early morning workouts a try. It’s a quick walk to the fitness center at my place so since I still have two more workdays this week I’m going to commit to giving it a try tomorrow morning plus a bit of floor work and strength training tonight.
I think I’m done whining and have put together a solid plan to get myself back on track because I’ve been feeling so good I don’t want to throw away all my progress. If you’re made it this far thanks for reading my whiny post and hope everyone is having a great week! 😀