Sorry I haven’t been writing as much lately…

00558580-7d88-0132-bbfd-0ebf924f622eūüėČ ¬†Okay, so maybe I’m not super popular but my social calendar has been busier than usual. ¬†Since Friday I’ve been out every night of the week except for Saturday and today plus have plans to go out tomorrow.

Whew, so tonight I forced myself to go to the gym because it’s easy to come up with excuses not to go especially when you’re “busy”. ¬†I’m going tomorrow night because we’re not meeting up until 7 so I have time to go to the gym before I go out.

This morning I threw my gym bag in the car but by mid-afternoon I’d convinced myself I didn’t need to go…there’s always tomorrow is what I tell myself. ¬†IMG_0056I usually tell myself that in dramatic Scarlett O’Hara fashion.

Thankfully a coworker asked if I was going to the gym today and I think she wanted to go together but my aversion to working out with people is for another post. ¬†Later another coworker asked if I had been going to the gym lately and I had to admit I hadn’t been in about a week. ¬†He suggested we put up a calendar and mark the days we go, which is an idea I love, definitely good for accountability.

I know I need to just let it go and accept that life is what it is and everything happens for a reason but…..

I can’t help thinking about how much my life has changed for the better. ¬†I’ve gone out to dinner more times in the year I’ve lived here than I did the entire time I lived in Moscow. ¬†I’ve also made more amazing friends and am so happy!!! ¬†I know part of it is my attitude, part of it is the job, part of it is the change in environment, and part of it is I don’t know what.

I would suggest to anyone who is unhappy in life to make a change even if it’s not easy. ¬†Change jobs. ¬†Change cities. ¬†Even simple changes to your routine can make a big difference. ¬†Work out. ¬†Go outside. ¬†Go someplace new. ¬†Eat new food. ¬†Say yes more often.

Getting out of my rut, even if it was slightly forced by cosmic intervention i.e. the store closing, was the best thing that ever happened to me. ¬†I sometimes shudder to think where I would be if that had never happened…..Would I still be there? ¬†Would I still be trying to make it work? ¬†Would I still be stuck?

Thankfully I’m not stuck other than stuck wondering how to end this post….I had no idea where I was going but of course I’m back to reflecting on this amazing journey, mostly because I’m so darn happy right now. ¬†I appreciate everyone reading!

Feel free to comment!  Ever made a big change in your life?

Wine and Painting

In my continued spirit of trying new things I jumped at the opportunity to go to a wine and painting class with a group of ladies from work. ¬†The event was planned almost a ¬†month ago so I was eagerly awaiting last night’s arrival.

Many people think because a person is “artsy” or “creative” that they are automatically good at all forms of crafting or art but this is not the case. ¬†I’m pretty decent with a sharpie but painting is not my forte so I was nervous.

Fortunately I had no reason to be nervous because the class walks you through every step and there’s no right or wrong way to create your masterpiece. ¬†One of my favorite parts of the class was seeing how every person’s painting was different, none really looking the example we were shown at the beginning. ¬†

People used different colors, made their tree different, turned the canvas, added more branches, more flowers, less flowers, etc.  The girl next to me made her background pink and purple, someone else did fall colors (orange, red, yellow) for the blossoms, another girl put her tree on top of the world and added a quote, so no shortage of creativity.  Each painting was unique and amazing.

This was me and my masterpiece ūüėÄ

I really hated it at first because I’m a crazy perfectionist but once I took a pic and stepped away from it for a minute I was happy. ¬†I decided it was in the style of impressionism. ¬†It looks a little messy up close but from far away it looks legit ūüėČ

Tomorrow I’m headed out for a fundraiser for the Animal Rescue Foundation at a local bar. ¬†My friend is bringing her 2 dogs so I’ll get a dog for the day, which I’m really excited about because for some reason lately I really, really, really, really want a dog. ¬†I can’t afford one with the food, vet bills, and extra rent I would have to pay. ¬†Plus I don’t have the time it might take to ease James the cat into accepting a new roommate so I’ll just hang out with other people’s dogs.

I also think this is a good opportunity in my search for the holy grail .  I recognize I improve my odds of meeting someone when I actually leave my apartment.

Today though is mostly going to be a lazy day except for a quick trip to Target. ¬†All the bleaching and color has my hair feeling like straw so I’m going to try a conditioning treatment. ¬†If I’m going to make it before the stores start getting busy I should probably step away from the computer.

What’s something new you’ve tried recently? ¬†Have you ever gone to a wine and painting class?

Enjoy the rest of the weekend!


The Holy Grail

My best friend, whom I love and adore, continues in her efforts to push me into the dating world.

I continue to resist.

I’ve written about dating before and I keep thinking soon I’ll be ready to jump into the world of online dating but each time I try I find my heart simply isn’t in it. ¬†I’m not opposed to meeting people and my confidence is good but I just keep hoping for something more organic. ¬†I keep hoping for a connection with a person in the real world but in the dating world this is like a quest for the holy grail.


Hanging out last weekend my phone was highjacked and Bumble was downloaded. ¬†The latest in the line of online dating apps, Bumble places the power in the hands of the woman. ¬†Woman look through pics and a short bio then swipe left for no, right for yes. ¬†If the guy also says yes then there’s a connection and the woman makes the first move to start a conversation.

It greatly reduces the odds of getting creepy messages from men just looking to hook up and lets you make connections with people you actually like. ¬†I will say if you are into online dating this seems like a good site because there was a large number of men I said no to simply because they were so good looking, like model head shot good looking. ¬†Some seemed too good to be true, 6’3″, 42, doctor, loves the outdoors, etc, etc, several of those….

I swiped right on a few guys, got a connections but failed to make contact in time (contact must be made within 24 hours) so it was a missed opportunity. ¬†Some part of me was disappointed but as I mentioned above my heart is not really in it and I’m not 100% sure why.

I sometimes worry that I’ve been single for too long and now I’m too independent to seek out a relationship even though I know I want one. ¬†I don’t want to be alone forever. ¬†I joke about being a crazy cat lady but I want a husband, white picket fence, maybe kids someday.

Perhaps one day I’ll wake up and realize online dating is the best option or I’ll just feel ready to go down that road but in the meantime I’ll just keep hoping for the holy grail ūüėČ

I think I’ll try this….online-dating-time-out-2