Christmas Spirit and a Mushy Meltdown

I finally found a little bit of my Christmas spirit but it took awhile and a complete meltdown.

I was guilty of getting caught up in the negative side of Christmas.  The idea that not only must you give more presents but those presents must be bigger, better, shinier, more creative but also expensive and impressive.  I can’t afford expensive and impressive and wasn’t feeling very creative or crafty this year so after a quick shopping trip for Christmas gifts I was feeling down.

I walked in the door, sunk to the floor, and had a little cry.

During that little breakdown I forced myself to think about past Christmases, presents that stood out to me, and (this is the mushy part) what really stood out to me were the memories, not the presents.  This is the first year in a long time I might not make it home.  I realized I just wanted Christmas with everyone together but life changes and it becomes more challenging each year to get the entire family together.

I decided the only way to make it through this holiday season was to do what must be done in any difficult situation, focus on the positive.  I realized I have to quit wallowing in my own little Grinch themed pity party.  I had to quit doing this….

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I have basically one whole side of my family on this side of the mountains plus more than one friend volunteered to take me in on Christmas if I found myself stranded.  Also, everyone who knows me knows I just moved, just started a new job, and don’t have tons of money right now, so I don’t think anyone is expecting cars and diamonds….oh, and if you’re reading this and that’s what you were expecting, sorry!   XD

Enough with the mush, on to the picture portion of this post!

At the end of last week I decided to create a Post It note Christmas tree and have been adding to it this week.  Today it was a few more tiny snowflakes and a snowman….it was a slow day at work.  IMG_0855.JPG

At home I also decided to put up some lights but was very disappointed to find no outlet on my balcony 😦  That didn’t stop me so I employed a bit of creativity to hang up a couple strands of lights on my front windows.  IMG_0832.JPGIMG_0833.JPGTonight I became super ambitious and decided to make a batch of peppermint bark! FullSizeRender (52).jpg I planned to make one more batch but forgot to buy another pack of white chocolate so that will have to wait until tomorrow.  Plus after running errands, cooking dinner, making bark, and writing, my evening is done!  It’s bedtime for me!  Hope everyone is having a great week!  I should have a Working Wardrobe Wednesday post up tomorrow.

Vacation from Unemployment

I missed my little blog and found myself eager to get back into it even though I don’t really have anything exciting going on, it’s just nice to have an outlet to share your thoughts.  Christmas vacation was nice, although I joked with my mom that I didn’t know if it could exactly be considered a vacation but I guess it qualifies as vacation since I was out of town…

I took an extra day of Christmas vacation simply because I could and I don’t know when I’ll have that opportunity again where I can stay an extra day just because I want to without worrying about work or any other responsibilities (except for my cat, who seems to not be too upset at having to stay with the vet for one more night).  My holidays in the past typically involved taking maybe 3 days at my parents’ then rushing home to maybe enjoy one day of rest before rushing back to a hectic work schedule.  Sometimes we would celebrate before or after the holiday because the world of retail revolves around the holiday season, which can mean working the day before and the day after Christmas.

This visit was gloriously different.  I had time to see my aunts and cousin, watch a movie with my grandpa, and still have time to sleep in and spend several days just watching movies with my mom (finally finished all the Hobbit movies!).  I even had some time to snap some pictures when it snowed a couple days after Christmas.

When I was working I didn’t have the time to do all of these things, usually had to pick and choose what to do with this visit instead of simply being able to enjoy the time.  I would tell my grandpa that next time I come up we’ll do something or have to explain to my mom that I really just wanted to take a nap because I worked late the night before then got up to drive home and have to drive back in a day.

This visit was a reminder that the time with family is precious and meant to be enjoyed, not rushed.  Sometimes the holidays involve so much hustle and bustle that we forget to RELAX and enjoy the time together.

I’ve heard some people actually use their vacation hours and go on vacations without staying in constant contact with work.  I’m not sure if it’s realistic but I am going to work on becoming one of those people.  I don’t know what my next job will be but I’m going to do my best to curb my workaholic tendencies and remember that vacations are necessary.

Christmas Break

Christmas is definitely one of my favorite holidays.  I actually love all the holidays especially the fun traditions that go from generation to generation.  I think as I grow older I begin to have a deeper appreciation for the traditions that surround the holidays.  I know everyone has their own way of celebrating the holidays but whatever way you celebrate hopefully it’s doing something that makes you happy.

Christmas Eve has always been my favorite.  Watching Christmas movies, usually A Christmas Story, opening one present, leaving cookies out for Santa, and the anticipation of Christmas morning, even as an adult I still love going home to enjoy all these small events.  Okay, maybe I stopped leaving cookies out for Santa a few years ago but I always loved waking up in the morning, finding the cookies gone, and usually a note left behind.

Digging through my stocking in the morning is probably my second favorite, so fun to see all the treats hidden inside and every year as I dig through the same stocking I’ve used as long as I can remember I instantly feel like a kid again.  I also just love the time spent with my family.

I wish my brother and his wife lived closer but maybe next year.  Maybe we’ll plan to travel one year for Christmas, although after watching the news I think traveling over the holidays seems like one to avoid if possible.  I’m thankful for the family I get to see and will hopefully see the ones I didn’t get to see on my travels in the new year.

My laptop is ancient (5 years old) by technology standards and the battery lasts for about 5 minutes if it’s not plugged in plus without wi-fi at my parent’s place I don’t see much point in dragging it along plus I just want to enjoy the time away so I probably won’t post anything for a few days.

I planned on writing a bunch of posts ahead of time but, you know, the best laid plans and all that jazz 🙂  Hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!!