Moving Monday

Meal Plan Monday will be on hiatus for the next few weeks.  I wasn’t going to write about this tonight but I’m so overwhelmed I felt the need to write.

I’d given up for the night.  It was after 5:00.  I had my kitchen pulled apart cleaning out the last of the drawers when I heard the faint ring of my phone.  I figured it was just my imagination.  I’d “heard” my phone ring at least 4 other times but nonetheless I walked over to investigate.

Yes.  My phone is ringing and it’s the phone call I’ve been waiting to get for the past 3 weeks.

I answer and walk into my office to sit down.  Good news I knew I would need to write some stuff down.  Bad news I knew I wanted to be sitting down.

Thankfully it was good news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In a couple weeks I will be able to remove my unemployed label and place myself back in the category of employed.  I still have tons of questions I’ll need to get answers to because when I was talking to her on the phone all I could think was “Finally.  It finally happened.” plus planning the list of people I needed to call.

It’s the foot in the door I’ve been wanting.

Excitement quickly faded into a mixed bag of emotions.
Anxious.  Nervous.  Elated.  Overwhelmed.  Stunned.  Excited.  Slightly nauseous.

Despite all my preparing I couldn’t believe it was finally happening.  To be honest, some part of me had given up.  I knew if something didn’t happen within the next week or two I was going to have to take whatever job was available.  Thankfully I got the call I wanted today!

My life is now going to be taken over by lists so I don’t lost my damn mind.  Lists for packing.  Lists for cleaning.  To-do Lists.  Calendars.  Organization will be the key to my not completely losing it over the next few weeks.  Yep, that’s right.  I’m going to be trying to do all this by the end of the month.

Priority #1:  Find a place to live.

I’ll keep you guys posted on how everything is going.  In the midst of the craziness I’m going to keep writing.  I’m going to keep working out.   I’m going to try to keep doing the things that have been keeping me sane over the last several months. If anything it’s going to be easier to get some sort of schedule because I won’t be doing what I’ve been doing for the last week, which is waiting by the phone.

Hopefully, I can get myself organized and ready to move on to the next chapter.  Mostly right now I’m hoping now that the pressure of waiting is off me I can finally get some sleep…….


Job Hunt Progress Report

I wasn’t going to post about this but I just got a call from one of my references and I’m so excited!!!!!

I got a call yesterday from one of the panel members asking about the spelling of the last name of one of my references because I had it spelled one way but it was spelled another way in his e-mail.  I told her the e-mail is most likely right.  I really thought I had fixed that and hope they don’t read too much into that mistake…..I’m back to worrying.

Okay, a bit of worrying but mostly excitement at the knowledge.  I now know they’re contacting my references so I’m taking that as a good sign and hoping that means they’ll have an answer by the end of the week!

I really needed this bit of news because I was starting to feel really discouraged but now I’m excited again;however, I’m also trying to keep at least one foot on the ground and not allow myself to get completely carried away.  I’m optimistic but I’m also continuing to apply for other jobs because if for some reason this doesn’t happen I need to make sure I have a plan in place.  I’ve also come so far on my journey if I don’t get the job I want to stay motivated and not allow it to completely devastate me, which I’m afraid it might.

Today I’m going to go with the optimistic path.  I’m going to do some apartment hunting.  I’m going to mark down some of the stuff I’m selling in order to get it out of here.  I’m going to do some more deep cleaning this week and maybe a bit more packing.

I’m so excited at this potential opportunity!  My focus right now continues to be stay busy and keep thinking positive thoughts!   I’ll take this time to also once again say thank you to everyone for all your support, encouragement, and kind words!!!!  😀

Getting Over It

I am moving past the “waiting for a callback” topic that has dominated my blog for the last 2 weeks.  It’s not going to be easy to stop myself from thinking about it but I need to just continue living my life.  I have to be honest with myself about what I’ve been doing lately.  It’s going to sound harsh but I need to put an end to the little pity party I’ve been having for myself.

After this post today I’m not going to post anything else about it until I have new information.  

I really want to e-mail to avoid the phone call but I know a phone call is the better way to go.  I’m going to call tomorrow afternoon if I haven’t heard anything because it will have been exactly 2 weeks.  My next dilemma is figuring out who to call.  The person on the recruiting team who set up the interview?  One of the panel members?  Some random HR person?

I’m going to go with one of the panel members since I have the phone number for 2 of them and just check on the status of the hiring process.  I’m going to write out a little script with some notes to help me out.  In my research I realized I should have asked who I could contact for follow-up, if it’s okay to contact for follow-up, and the date to follow-up.

Lesson learned.  Move forward.

I realized last night after spending all day yesterday (obsessively) checking my e-mail and my phone I’m allowing the waiting to overtake my life.  It’s affecting my mood very negatively.  As I woke up sniffling and coughing I realized it might also be affecting my health.

This potential job is very important to me but I can’t allow it to consume me.  I’m becoming even more anxious than usual and depressed.  I allowed myself to get very excited at the prospect of moving and starting a new job that when everything didn’t happen right away it affected me more than I wanted to admit.

Last night I was resolved to spending the evening not thinking about it and started popping some popcorn so I could settle in to watch “True Detective” but I received within a minute of each other text messages from 2 amazing, wonderful, well-intentioned friends asking if I’d heard anything yet.

My previous calm quickly turned back to anxiety but I responded then put the phone in my bedroom, out of sight, out of earshot, and it was good.

I resolved to go to bed by 9PM because I was telling someone the other day to get into a routine and realized I needed to follow my own advice.  I didn’t even watch TV in bed (slowly breaking the habit), instead found a nice calm station on Pandora, Ocean Waves for Deep Sleep, set the sleep timer and went to sleep.  I recommend the station if you like nature sounds with some light music, very relaxing.

As I lay in bed this morning not wanting to get out of bed it furthered my resolve to want to get out this “waiting to hear back from a job” funk I’ve put myself in right now.  I realized allowing myself to sink into depression isn’t doing me any good.  I was talking myself out of even leaving the apartment today, which is a red flag for me.  When I start finding excuses for being a hermit then it’s time to fight.

Fight against the dark cloud hanging over my head and get outside.

I’m going to the gym, check on my friend’s cats, swing by the gallery, drop off the donations overtaking my car right now, and apply for some more jobs.  I’m also going to make some sugar scrubs so there will be a post about that later today.

If you’ve made it this far.  Thanks for listening to me whine about this issue one last time……Now it’s time to shake away my dark cloud and move onward to (hopefully) happier topics 🙂