The Last Year

Hello again ūüôā

I’m going to summarize last year.¬† I completed 19 races, 3-10K’s, 1-8K, and 15-5K’s and was on my way to 20 when a mild disaster struck me over Thanksgiving weekend.

Two weekends earlier I had done a 5 mile hike and was feeling pretty sore but figured it was just because of all the stairs to climb up.¬† The weekend prior to Thanksgiving I planned a hike with a friend and picked something I thought was easy but unfortunately ended up being a 10 mile hike up and down the side of a mountain.¬† We literally climbed a mountain that day….

Coming down the mountain I wasn’t sure I was going to make it to the car.¬† I’ve never exhausted my legs to the point where they were ready to quit.¬† I was in tears.¬† It was miserable but we finished.

Going into the week I was sore but I knew I had a 10K coming up so I rested on Sunday, 3 miles on Monday, rested Tuesday, couple miles on Wednesday then the big day arrived.

Getting up that morning I knew my knee was abnormally sore but I decided to push through because that’s what people do, right? The 10K was a 5K loop twice and when I finished the 5K I almost quit…..but I hobbled past the finish line determined to complete it.¬† Did I mention it was also pouring down rain?

As I crossed the finish line drenched and limping I could feel something was not right with my knee but I had my medal.

By the time I got home and went to step out of the car I could barely put weight on my right leg.¬† ¬†Determined not to cancel on my best friend I hobbled over to her place for a very painful dinner.¬† I was able to get into the doctor on Friday who suggested I sprained my MCL, told me to ice and rest.¬† That’s what I did but it wasn’t getting better.¬† Tuesday I went back to a different doctor….and I’ll summarize December to now.

X-rays, sports doctor, MRI, surgeon, surgery, and here I am recovering from a torn medial meniscus.¬†They weren’t able to repair so basically it was cleaned up, cartilage removed, and I’m left with a knee that will never be the same.

Prior to going into surgery I read articles that claimed 4-6 weeks recovery time so I assumed I would be back walking 3-6 miles again within a month after surgery.¬† I ignored all the articles stating “recovery times vary” “may be 6 months or more for full recovery”¬† I decided to err on the side of the least amount of time…and I was wrong.

Here I am 3 months out and cancelling plans because of my dumb, stupid, sore knee.

The reason I’ve started writing again is because I’m making plans to try to help the dumb knee with more exercise and a new diet.¬† I’m not doing any specific diet but taking inspiration from different diets and getting back to basics.¬† Less processed foods, less sugar, more meat, more fruit, more veggies, more healthy fats.

I received an offer this morning from a gym I’ve been thinking about joining so I’m taking that as a sign and signing up.

I’ve managed to convince myself that I’m doing okay with my weight and overall health.¬†¬†facebook-556c26

My jeans are getting snug and my knee gets worse.¬† There may not be a correlation and I’m no doctor but I know taking some weight off the joint will help so that’s the plan.

It feels good to be back to writing and I’m hoping to have time to write at least a few times during the week but I’ll definitely be posting the meal plans on Monday.¬† Look for a meal plan later today and have a happy Monday!

Lunch Time

As I mentioned previously I struggle with eating lunch consistently, actually it’s not the eating lunch that’s the problem instead the problem is eating a healthy lunch. ¬†If I don’t pack a lunch I end up eating out, which costs money and also typically adds up the calories.

My mission for the upcoming weeks is to come up with easy lunches and backup plans for when I forget my lunch. ¬†I’m going shopping tomorrow to pick up a handful of things for lunches for this week, mostly wraps and fruit. ¬†Next week I’m going to actually plan out the lunches here with my dinner meal plan.

The other part of my plan is to create some brown bag lunches I can keep in my office as back up lunches so I’ll be looking for items that don’t need refrigeration or a microwave. ¬†I’m thinking things like tuna and crackers, maybe fruit cups, and I’m open to ideas ūüôā

A stomach bug kept me out of the gym on Friday and Saturday. ¬†Today I spent some time in the pool (Note to self: ¬†Next time, use more sunscreen) and went for a walk with a friend to the mall so wasn’t just crashed out in front of the TV. ¬†My friend is in the same boat as me, the boat where we ate too much and are now struggling with weight gain, so she’s open to weekend activities that keep us moving. ¬†Also, she’s competitive so I told her I would start texting her when I’m at the gym to help keep her motivated.

It’d be nice if we could work out together but we’re just far enough away with traffic that it’s not plausible during the week but we can still help keep each other with motivation.

My bag is already packed with gym clothes so I’m ready to start the week off on the right foot! ¬†The other part to that is getting to bed because I was out sick on Friday I’m sure I’ll have plenty to catch up on tomorrow.

Hope everyone enjoyed the weekend! ¬†It was a hot one here on the west side of Washington and I’m so grateful for the breeze coming through my apartment right now. ¬†Earlier it was at least 90 degrees in here so I might stay up just a bit longer with all the windows open to let the place cool down because earlier I felt like this…..


Whiny Weight Gain Wednesday

Ugggghhhhh……I’m skipping Working Wardrobe Wednesday this week because I ran into a bit of a snag this week. I realized 2 things this¬†morning as I began to pile hangers and discarded clothes onto my bed.

  1.  I realized planning my wardrobe for the week really is a good idea.
  2. I realized I was facing the same dilemma as Austin Powers faced in one of his movies,

“I lost my mojo”


Perhaps Dr. Evil stole it……(Now I just want to watch Austin Powers movies) ¬†Anyways, I’ve been feeling super cute and confident in all my work clothes over the last few weeks but this week I felt like I’d lost my mojo, or my groove, or whatever you choose to call it.

Gone was the confidence replaced with feeling like a short, boring, blob. ¬†I tried on at least 4 different outfits this morning and hated all of them even outfits I’d loved in the past were discarded to the rejection pile. ¬†I proclaimed each outfit to be more dreary than the next

I’ve been racking my brain all morning trying to figure out what’s going on with me. ¬†I’ve finally come to the conclusion that I might simply be having an off week. ¬†There’s no rule that says because I have confidence in myself I’m not going to ever feel any shred of doubt or have days where I feel fat or unattractive. ¬†I was going to say ugly but I find that word to be so harsh and I don’t really feel ugly just not well put together, a little “off my game” lol.

Today I’ve resigned myself to gray slacks, black thermal, and the same dark purple cardigan I wore yesterday.

Warm, comfortable, and a bit dreary…….

That was yesterday.

This morning I felt the weight gain before I even pulled out the scale. ¬†I don’t know why but I feel like I have a better understanding of my body now to the point where I could tell I had gained about 3 pounds. ¬†Poor eating habits over the weekend trickled over into the first part of the week, not completely but I definitely had a few things I knew I should be avoiding. ¬†Also, I haven’t been working out consistently.

The sad part was what happened this morning. ¬†I stepped on the scale, saw that I had gained 3 pounds, and the first words out of my mouth were “I guess I need to quit eating” o_O ¬†Not, “I should probably get off my ass at night or in the morning and work out” or “Maybe I shouldn’t have eaten 3 slices of pizza for dinner last night” or “I need to start walking more”

Nope, it was that I should stop eating. ¬†That makes sense ūüôĄ

Instead of thinking about the healthy changes I could make in my life I decided in that instant the best choice was to cut off all forms of nourishment.  I know it was an exaggeration but right after I said it I realized I still have a ways to go in changing my mindset.

Plan of action is to get the eating fully back on track, reading labels, watching sugars, not allowing myself to fall into the quick, easy, processed food trap (it’s so easy when you’re busy and working), and start trying some new foods again. ¬†I’m in a new city with a greater variety of grocery shopping locations, plus being in a different region gives me food options I wouldn’t find in other places. ¬†For example, close to the ocean means lots of seafood options so I need to start checking out new recipes.

Also, get into some kind of workout routine!!!!!

It really is challenging because after work I don’t feel like doing anything but I know I would feel better if I worked out so I think I might give early morning workouts a try. ¬†It’s a quick walk to the fitness center at my place so since I still have two more workdays this week I’m going to commit to giving it a try tomorrow morning plus a bit of floor work and strength training tonight.

I think I’m done whining and have put together a solid plan to get myself back on track because I’ve been feeling so good I don’t want to throw away all my progress. ¬†If you’re made it this far thanks for reading my whiny post and hope everyone is having a great week! ūüėÄ