Thoughts I have about running:
“I can’t be a runner”
“My body is not designed for running”
“I’m so slow”
“I look ridiculous”
“I’m a walker, not a runner”
“It’s too hard”
“People are staring at me”
“I can’t be a runner”
I’m trying to change some of those thoughts, especially the first and last one but it’s a challenge.
When I run, like really run, even it’s only for 30 seconds or a minute it feels good and I like it. I understand why people do it, even though my shins hurt, my feet begin to ache, and my legs feel like they’re going to give out.
That feeling (the good feeling, not the aching legs) is why I keep trying.
Earlier this week I picked up the pace to under a 15:00 mile for almost a minute. It was a big deal for me because it reminded me that I can be a runner. I can do this thing that scares me.
Next weekend I’m participating in my second 10K, and the first race on my own.
I’m nervous. I’m worried I might not have the same level of motivation on my own but there’s also a part of me thinking I might be more motivated on my own.
I worry I haven’t been training like I should be but after this week I’m feeling more confident in my ability to get a good time. My last few races my pace is about 17 minutes per mile but yesterday I did a mile in 16:50, not much time shaved off but it’s improvement.
As the weather has improved I’m taking my training outside. I’m back to my old/new favorite walking spot by the waterfront. I walked there some last year but I’ve expanded my route.
Yesterday I downloaded Map My Run to help me map out some routes with distances. The route I did yesterday was 3.5 miles so I think that’s going to become one of my regular routes. It’s flat, scenic, not crowded (although we’ll see how it is in the summer), and I feel safe walking it alone.
I don’t mind the treadmill but I think I need to walk outside more often because my races are outside. I’m trying to make my workouts more like race day. Also, my gym is closed all of next week for a remodel so I’m being forced into the outdoors.
My plan for the week is:
Sunday: Do a trial run for next weekend, a 10K, 6.2 miles.
Monday 4.0 miles.
Tuesday Rest Day.
Wednesday 3.5 miles.
Thursday 5.0 miles.
Friday 3.5 Miles.
Saturday Rest Day, maybe a couple miles…just see how the day goes but not total sloth mode.
Sunday is the day!!
I typically do about 13 miles a week so I’m just adding in a few extra miles this week. Also, I’ll be stretching, and icing, and stretching and icing, then icing some more in an attempt to ward off shin splints 😦 Evil, evil shin splints. It’s been a slow process but my goal is to do a half marathon next year. One of my coworkers thinks we’ll be doing a full marathon by the end of next year but right now that feels like a stretch, although nothing is impossible 🙂
I’ll have meal plans coming up tomorrow or Monday at the latest. Also, I’ll be making some changes to my gym schedule and working out with a friend….so we’ll see how that goes.
In the meantime I’m going to go sit and watch some basketball. Go Zags!
Last weekend I completed my 6th race! This one was extremely laid back and neither of us were worried about time for this one. The theme was for Comicon here in Seattle. It was just a great excuse to throw on capes, tutus, and eye masks to go walk around a major park in Seattle Saturday morning 🙂
I’m trying to prepare for my next big one in April. It’s a 10K. I’m going it alone. It might be weird but I kind of wanted to do one on my own to see how I do. Would I jog or run more? Would I walk faster or slower? I’m mostly just curious to see if my time will be better or worse……plus I get a medal and a t-shirt 😉
The rest of my races so far this year are fun 5K’s but I think I’m going to do another 10K in October. It’s so addicting. I think the environment is just so positive. The people I’ve met in the running community are nice and encouraging.
Before signing up for any races, I spent way too much time worrying that I would be the person at the back of the pack and that people would judge me for being slow. I learned quickly it’s an accomplishment just getting out there and other people see that as well. I’ve never felt any negative attention or judgement from anyone at any race.
I’m at a place where I appreciate the accomplishment. I like being able to say, “I completed a 5K or a 10K this weekend” Accomplishment feels good so I plan to continue with those good feelings.
I feel like I’m finally starting to live my life. I’ve talked about it at length before but I spent way too long worrying about everything and hiding from the world but no more! Tutu Tasha is ready to take on all the new challenges life throws her way!
Challenge tonight is to get some dinner cooked before it gets too much later and get in some downtime before another long day of work tomorrow. Hope everyone is having a great week! Happy Wednesday!