LYBM Day 19: Girl on Fire

This is one of the posts in my feed this morning and this song definitely helped me pick up a bit of motivation for this last day of the work week. 🙂 Also, I had not realized February is “Love Your Body Month” I’ve been loving reading these posts and listening to great music.

Working Wardrobe Wednesday

FullSizeRender (46)I don’t know why I look so scowly in this first picture but if I had to guess it was because I bought this super cute lace/crochet tank top for only $2 thinking it would be cute under a little cardigan but it wasn’t working for me.  Instead of trying out some things the night before I waited until I was getting ready for work in the morning 🙄

I have to say I loved this shirt when I tried it on in the store and especially loved it when it rang up at only $2.  I think it will be perfect for summer but I would like to get some use out of it this winter so I began to experiment.

First it was with a black tank top and black sweater but I think the neckline of the tank was weird with the neckline of the cardigan so I moved onto plan B.

I think I might try to find a tank with the same high neckline and see how that looks with it but in the mean time I’m using what I already have hanging around in my closet so I decided I needed to get closer to the color, which is a pale grey.

The look below worked but there was still something off about it.  I felt like everything matched and should have gone together but it still didn’t look right so I’m going to keep experimenting with this shirt.

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I had $15 super cash from Old Navy that I had been saving for the perfect vest and Ta-Dah!  FullSizeRender (45)I found it!  I tried on an XL but it was a bit snug and the point of the vest is to be able to layer it over other clothes so I wanted to go up a size but had to scour the store for about 10 minutes before finally finding my size.  Vest mission accomplished! 😀

It’s one of my favorite pieces now and I have to say I will wear it with practically anything.  This weekend it was a light pullover, yesterday at work it was a thermal, and a flannel.

It’s warm, comfortable, and already worth the money, which with the super cash was only about $15.  Yay!

This morning I found this sweater lurking in the back of my closet.  I love the fit but am still questioning why I bought a sweater with a jaguar on the chest.  I’ll probably wear it on the weekends but after some deliberation I decided it’s not going into my work wardrobe.  
oday I wanted to feel cute and girly.  Lately, I feel like I’ve been craving pink and cutesy the way people crave chocolate.  I think my job is in the masculine category so I find myself working to maintain my femininity without overdoing it.  I went simple, black cardigan, striped tee, and my favorite jeans….the cat shrug is a bit much so I took it off before I left for work XDIMG_0344

Hope everyone is having a lovely week!  It’s been good here but getting cold so my wardrobe is all about layers, so I’m working on finding ways to bundle without looking bulky.  I should have some new looks next week!

Damn the Scale!

Ugh….I haven’t let the scale bring me down this much in ages.  I actually quit weighing myself for awhile, maybe once a week or once every other week but I’d released myself from daily weigh-ins.  I feel like I’ve reached a place where I understand my body enough to recognize changes.  The one week I gained 3 lbs but I knew that before I stepped on the scale but I lost it again and have been steadily maintaining my weight, no loss, no gain.

I’ve been doing measurements and counting on how my clothes fit to guide me but yesterday morning I decided to pull out the scale. I wanted to set a new goal to help push myself to work out more often (still struggling with it but that’s another post).

It showed a number I haven’t seen in almost 2 months and I might have felt it a little bit but not 7lbs.
My clothes still fit.  The day before I was admiring how great I look in my new jeans, which were 2 sizes down from what I was a few months ago.  I was also admiring my whittled down waist line earlier this week.  I felt good.

Yesterday as I dressed for work I found my confidence wavering because of the number on the scale.

This is how psychological body image can be because I felt fine the day before, felt fine yesterday morning until I did my weigh-in then I decided to start analyzing every part of my body.  I quit thinking about how I felt, what I saw in the mirror, all I could see was the number.  I had even done measurements the day before but the almighty scale told me how what my body really looked like to the world.

It’s ridiculous.

The rational part of my mind knows I might simply be bloated and I should also recognize the reliability of that scale is questionable.  I’m frustrated with myself for even allowing it to get to me so much but I guess I still struggle to turn off the part of my brain that equates that number on the scale with how I feel when ultimately it shouldn’t matter.

And it doesn’t.  I got myself dressed for work yesterday morning, looked at myself in the mirror, and liked what I saw so I decided that number doesn’t really matter.  If my measurements aren’t changing, if my clothes are fitting, if I’m feeling confident in my own skin then….

Damn the Scale!

I’ve tucked it back away in it’s corner and will take it out again…someday, maybe 😉  or perhaps I’ll simple let it collect dust in the corner.  I’ll count on measurements and how my clothes fit to track changes in my body but mostly I’ll just focus on how I feel, which today is happy and confident.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!