I Hate Everyone

This was me today and I don’t even know why.  It was like I just woke up hating the world for some reason.  I know it’s Monday but I really don’t feel like that’s a great excuse to turn into Grumpy Cat.

It sucks when I feel like this at work because I can’t hide.  The office is very social…it’s an office.  People walk by the hallway, mosey into your office when they feel like chatting, everyone chats in the hallway, and normally I love the social aspect of the job but today I was not feeling it.  Fortunately if there’s anything retail has taught me is how to smile when I mostly just want to scowl and sulk in a corner.

Almost every time I had to talk to someone I was doing this in my mind 

I made it through the day without slamming my door and hiding under my desk but it was a struggle.  I did everything I could think of to force myself into a good mood but nothing worked, even an afternoon trip to Starbucks to pick up an eggnog latte for the last day of their buy one, get one free holiday drink special only lifted my mood for about 20 minutes.  If a half price Starbucks latte can’t cheer me up I don’t know what will so I decided to write it out.

I think part of it is stress.  I’m feeling stressed about the upcoming holidays.

The possible drive home for Thanksgiving

And the start of the new job.  Plus feeling this odd pressure about the future.  Despite my recent accomplishments I’m feeling like a slacker lately and I don’t know why.

This is me on the outside….

This is me on the inside…

I’m trying so hard to be cool and calm that I’m internalizing everything, which is making me feel worse.  I think what I need to do is acknowledge the stress, allow myself to feel it then recognize I have plans in place and everything will work out.  Writing about it is already making me feel better plus it’s tough to be too grumpy when you’re searching for gifs 😀

Hopefully I will be out of this grumpy mood tomorrow, otherwise it’s going to be a very long week….